Lola!

Mom and dad messaged me saying she's in critical condition.

My heart sunk...

As if a heart could ever put up a poker face,

such was the feeling...

Of not knowing what to know or what to feel.

I dread this moment.

I did not want her to see me like this.

I wanted her to see me up there on stage.

She promised to be here for my graduation,

that's only 2 to 3 months to go.

Again, I'm in a trance, missing my grandma

the closest one I ever had.

My special witness to the journey I alone took.

I'll miss her for sure. forever.

Such is the feeling of being left behind, if ever I must add.

Unprepared so to speak but ready...

Ready for whatever is His will.

After a prayer between my loving Father and me.

I surrender, hoping not to hold back

Praying for a miracle, one that will glorify His name once more.

I miss her.

I hope I can hear her voice tomorrow.